Back in mid-February, you may remember (if anyone reads this, haha), I missed out on a job opportunity with the Seattle Biomedical Research Institute because I was in Ensenada. I was pretty bummed, but shortly afterward I was able to find work as a tutor, and have been doing that ever since.
Since that time I have applied for jobs with 5 or 6 more laboratories, and no one has so much as given me the time of day. It is really easy to get discouraged, that is for sure, and this season has caused me to think about where my future will be. Will I work in education? If so, why do I still have these strong (and growing?) desires to be a doctor, to administer medical care to the poor, to feed the hungry, and to comfort the frightened? I DO enjoy working with High Schoolers, teaching students about stuff that they struggle to understand through their normal coursework, but this time has taught me that I want more than that. I still want to be a doctor. This past week I read a book called "Mountains Beyond Mountains" that really challenged me, and made me yearn to be a doctor. I almost couldn't take it.
So, tomorrow I am interviewing with SBRI. A couple of weeks ago they called me and asked if I would still be interested in a job with the same laboratory as before, working on Malaria vaccines. It turns out they have one more position that they want to fill, slightly different than what I had initially applied for, but still right up my alley. I am trying not to be anxious about it, not to have "butterflies," but it is hard. This is not only the first (real) job interview of my life, but it is also with a couple of VERY important PhD-level, we-pull-in-millions-of-dollars-of-grants-and-employ-dozens-of-other-PhD-level-scientists type Malariologists. I will need to be on my game, I will need to know exactly what I am talking about, and I am not entirely sure what to expect.If you read this blog between Sunday night and Monday afternoon, then, please remember to pray for me. God is GOOD and He has something for me, but I want to FIND it! If God calls me to work in medicine someday, then He will open the doors that I will need to get there. He has given me these desires for a reason, but I also need to subject my desires to Him. "He is not in such a hurry as we are, and it is not his way to give more light on the future than we need for action in the present, or to guide us more than one step at a time." (J.I.P.) For now, all I know is that my next step comes tomorrow: I have only to be faithful for my part, and He will certainly be faithful in His.
